Last night was wonderful. I love Church

Daydreaming is the best.

When I'm older and have my lovely house. I can see myself having a room full of books and photo albums on shelves that cover floor to ceiling. 

The only thing that'd make it better is a huge comfy chairs and some sort of hot chocolate machine [as we all know I don't drink coffee at all] 

Daydreaming is fun. 

Psalm 50 vs 1

So at the life prayer meeting last night we were praying away and God playing his usual tricks put the number 50 into my head. Now I still at this point have no idea what it means. What the relevance of this number was, I prayed into and turned to psalm 50 and this first verse really stood out to me. I still don't have a clue what this means. Whether it was meant for me personally. Whether it was meant for LIFE as we where praying for LIFE, or if it was for someone I know. I'm still praying about it, and I'm still trying to figure out it's meaning. But I thought I would post it, and if this reaches or speaks out to anyone, I'd love to hear from you. 

¹ The Mighty One, God, the LORD, 

   speaks and summons the earth 

   from the rising of the sun to where it sets.

Psalm 50 vs 1 NIV

Overwhelmed

At the moment, most people I know are sending off their Uni applications, getting ready for interviews, deciding where to go, when to go what courses they are going to do Etc.

I too, are trying to figure out what to  do in September. I've found myself overwhelmed with pressure, not just to go to Uni, but when to go, whether I should go next year instead of taking a gap year. Whether I should go somewhere closer to home or somewhere far away. Whether Uni is a good or bad idea. What to put in my personal statement.

I've found that it's one of the most difficult positions I've ever found myself in. Deciding at the age of 17 what to do with my future, where my life is going, where I'm going to spend 3 years of my life and deciding my career so young seems such a big decision.  But what I've found even more difficult is the overwhelming pressure from family and tutors at college about what to do. They all say "you should do what's best for you" or "Do what you feel is going to benefit you most" 

Then they keep banging on at me about what they think I should do, what they think is best for me, and making me feel like crap for not doing what they want. 

Surely this whole process should be what I want to do? I'm so confused