Good Friday

‎"Forgive them for they know not what they do"

The last words that Jesus spoke on the cross. See today is one of the most important days on the Christian calendar. It's good Friday, 1978 years ago Jesus sacrificed his life on the cross for the sins of me and you. 

I'm not going to blog about the wonders of Jesus, thats for another day. However I want to openly say thank you. Thank you to him. Your love for the people on earth is never ending. It's unconditional, your love never fails 

I want to thank you Jesus for everything you have done for me, my friends, my family. 

late night thoughts

Yesterday evening me and the muppet I like to call my best friend where sat outside south hill park waiting for the gig at cellar to start. We looked out from reception at the sky and just started chatting. About music, about life and university, what would happen in the future and decisions that'd have to be made. In that moment I realised I was growing up. For me that is a terrifying thought. Soon I'll hopefully be off to University living a life of independence away from all the people I love here.  I have to find a job and be able to fend for myself, pay bills. Me paying bills? me driving? me living far away from home?! What a terrifying thought!

Then walking home the sky was pretty clear and it felt like walking back to a hotel room on Holiday, minus the cars and flats. It was a truly beautiful evening, and we started talking about key moments in our life, moments that were similar to a scene in a movie. Moments that happened in the past. Reminiscing about the past. 

There is something truly beautiful about the evening. Something so calming, a time that I truly remember how blessed I am with the life that God has provided for me. A life thats been challenging, and I know the future holds a lot more obstacles, but I know that God will be by my side every step of the way. 

It's nice to see celebrities raising awareness for sex trafficking. 

Change, again.

Things are changing, I don't necessarily like it, however I'm accepting it. Things are different to how they used to be a year ago. 

Change is a difficult thing to accept. I'm looking forward head on because thats the only way to deal with it. 

If things are changing in your life don't panic like I did, look forward to what lays ahead. 

A week of mixed emotions

This week has been a strange one. It started off quite emotional, had some lovely conversations with my cousin. Then it turned to the stress that comes with being a student. Paranoia that seems to take over my life at random moments of my life. Happiness of being with someone that takes those problems away. Sadness of upsetting news of friends and more stress from college. I tend to be in a constant mix on negative emotions lately, Maybe it's apart of growing up or maybe its the Womans excuse of hormones acting up. I'm not sure what they meant so as a Christian does I prayed to God. I found a bible verse from Matthew which speaks of putting all your weary's onto God. 

This weekend I was lucky enough to spend with some incredible people. For the first time in so long I've actually been content. I've smiled and it seems as though all the troubles that burden me during the week disappeared at the weekend. I was sat at Church today and we where encouraged to go on our knees and pray. I realised that I never actually put my problems onto God. I just got on with it as any normal teenager does. Then I was reminded of a dream about the footprints in the sand (See my previous post) then realised that through all of it God was carrying me through the troubles. He looked into my heart and saw my troubles and carried me through to light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes as a Christian I still find it difficult to wrap my head around the fact that God see's everything in your heart, I'm not sure why, but it always seemed quite bizarre to me.

 However today I realised that sometimes just chatting to God about everyday life gives him an insight onto what is really going on. I don't always need to tell him because he can see what burdens me most even if I don't pray to him about it. God does see whats in your heart, and for me personally, he sorted the main problem out. I didn't even need to pray for it. How amazing is God?

(Sorry it's a lengthy post)

Footprints In The Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.

Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.

Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,

other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed

that during the low periods of my life,

when I was suffering from

anguish, sorrow or defeat,

I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,

“You promised me Lord,

that if I followed you,

you would walk with me always.

But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life

there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.

Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”

The Lord replied,

“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,

is when I carried you.

I love this.