Hooray things are getting on track,

So I've had a pretty rough couple of weeks. I've been constantly tired being pulled in about 50 directions trying to see people who are constantly complaining because they don't see me enough or they just wanna chat or whatever the reason is. I've woken up this morning with a horrendous throat ache, body ache, and a headache is slowly developing. What makes it worse is I've got to go to the dentist in about an hour and the last thing I want to do is go outside. I genuinely feel like I'm about to chunder everywhere.
HOWEVER
I've had a couple of prophecies lately that have had similar meaning, I was quite worried about it yesterday but after an incredible message at both next steps and the 7pm meeting at Church I'm feeling a bit more optimistic. I'm still more tired that usual but I'm putting my priorities straight and hopefully will be back to my usual chirpy old self again.

Getting today's problems out of the way

 Before I became a Christian I used to have this idea that if I told people what was really going on, I'd be bothering them. Loading them with problems that they didn't need to hear. Worrying that they'd think that I was over exaggerating or that they'd think I was some kind of attention seeker. This resulted in countless nights crying myself to sleep. Crying over past hurt that I just didn't want to face at the time. Hoping that if I pushed it to the back of my head it would just go away. I'd mentally break down from all the overwhelming emotions building up in myself. 


Now a Christian and reflecting on the past, I realised that this was the worst way to handle a situation. Instead of ignoring all the pain, I should have dealt with it then. I should have found a solution to that predicament, thus preventing hurt and pain and anger in the future. It's come to my attention that in today's society we've got this mental attitude that our problems will just go away, or, that our problems can wait because we've got a big exam coming up. We've got a friend in need and we need to focus on them. Then one things leads to another and then one night laying in bed a single tear will fall down and crash on to our pillows, and all the hurt we chose to ignore comes back. Suddenly all the bad dreams make sense, it's because we've chosen to ignore what is bothering us. I say often that we're not superman/woman. We can't change everyone. We can't help others until we've learnt to deal with our own emotions. 


I've found that problems in the past that are left unsolved tend to cause more problems in the future. They tend to "cloud our decisions" and turn us into a person that people either don't want to know, or a person that isn't our self. It really doesn't have to be like that. Deal with your issue's or problems as they arise, not when you can't take much more of them. I understand that it won't happen overnight, but a start is part of the way there. 


Sian xox
We will run, together our hearts a flame, a fire that can't be tamed, our God, all glory to your name

There's a light at the end of the tunnel 

Lets all drink coffee & watch the people walk by. 

:3

Cultural Awareness

I lady from Sheffield came down and started to chatting to me and various others from life about cultural tradition and faith in the Bracknell community. It was a sort of awkward conversation to begin with, none of us knew what to say, however later on she started talking about how it'd be beneficial if people were to go to different events such as go to a mosk or a temple. for a service To teach people about different cultures and traditions. 


After speaking to this lady I started to think, when I was at school there was only 2 religions I ever learnt about. Muslim and Sikh. Bad isn't it? Now the school I went to doesn't teach Religious studies at all. Personally I think it's disgusting. What if we where to meet a person who was from a different Religion then accidently insult them, purely because we don't know enough about their culture? 
My friend Sam Jackson said that "people are too culturally unaware" what if we weren't? What if we knew about all these different cultures. 


Just before I go wedding dress hunting with my Aunty, I want to challenge you. How many people do you know that are either Muslim, Sikh, Hindu, Buddhist? What if you did? Would you find out about their culture? Or would you just leave it? Would you like to know more people from different religions? Take that step and start meeting new people, you never know what you could learn. 
Sian xox

Thankyou.

I'm far too happy. Things are going so well. I've got the most AMAZING people surrounding me. People that are inspiring, encouraging and the best people I could have hoped for. 
I love them. They've helped me get through some tough situations in my life.
They know who they are. 
Thankyou. 

Papa & Indian Food.

Like most of my weekends, I spent this one up in Swindon with my Dad, Sarah, Jess, Bradley & George. Now usually George isn't there so it was nice for my brother to spend time with someone his own age up there. Usually when I'm up there I'll work on a Saturday morning, sometimes in the evening too, and the rest of the weekend is spent up in the flat with Sarah and Jess, or we go shopping. This weekend was different. 

Saturday night after work me and Dad decided to go across the road to the local pub and relax after a busy evening. Dad's been unwell so it was the perfect wind down for him. Usually this wouldn't happen, my brother would go with him and I'd try getting some sleep. We where just sat there having a catchup, talking about recent happenings and discussing past and current challenging situations that are happening in our lives. After that we went to the Indian for a quick meal. Me and my Dad never get to spend time together as his constantly working whenever I'm there, or my brother is there constantly interrupting. Spending that time with Dad was actually amazing. It was nothing fancy, no awkwardness nothing. Just 2 people having a chat. Which is how it should be. 

Those horrible days.

When things go from bad to worse. It's times like these where I just want to get away.
As far as possible.
Lay on a beach
With A Camera
My Bible
My Ipod
and just forget the world. Forget everyone.
I need to get my head straight. Everything seems to go wrong.
I hate this.

John 1:5

The Light Shone Into The Darkness, And The Darkness Could Not Overcome it

 John 1:5 is a personal favourite verse from the bible. It was the first ever quote I learnt. The one that has most significant meaning. The one that has stuck with me through everything since giving my life to Jesus. 


I just wanted to share it with you. Purely because it's a quote that a lot of you could benefit from. 

Sian xox
You Are Our Hope, You Are Our Freedom, You Are The Light The Saviour That Died For Love - The Light, Dave Betts [Ethos]