Relevence, and a realisation that resembled a slap in the face.

So like I previously posted this afternoon I was helping out at Next Steps, which was awesome! Discussing what it's like to be a Christian, discussing prayer in the bible with a group of friends never fails to cheer me up.


But that wasn't what I wanted to talk about. There are always times when I can walk into Church perfectly happy, I'll sit down, start thinking then like a slap in the face a realisation that something I have done which was right at the time was a really wrong decision. Then I have a massive heart to heart with my best friend, which nearly put me in tears. Then to make my emotional state of mind worse, everything that the young people were talking about seemed too relevant. As if they had been watching me through a microscope observing my every move and then preaching about it or discussing that situation. At Next Steps through the Q&A situation that happened. 


Clearly they weren't observing me through a microscope as that's just silly. But it's happened on more than one occasion at the sermons and it never fails to freak me out. I've realised so much about myself within the space of an hour. So much is going on right now, so much that needs to be sorted, so much that I still need to learn about myself. It's scary how, just one sentence changes your view on yourself. You think you know yourself thoroughly because, you know, it's you surely no-one knows you better than yourself. I always had that mindset. Today I was proven wrong. I don't know everything myself and to be quite honest I'm glad I realised this stuff through God. God is there to show you your true colours. God is there to lead you on the right path. Not the path you want, what HE wants. 


Today, I realised part of me isn't doing what he wants. And that needs to change.
Sian xox
There's nowhere to go, but up from here - The same thing we do everyday, Broadway ft Craig Owens

HillTop

So today for the first time EVER I worked with Hilltop. I was incredibly nervous seeing as it was my first day and only knew one person going. We set up the tables from 1-2 and then came back at half 6 to Waitress. Everything was well organised, everything went according to plan which was awesome, but that's not what I wanted to talk about. I wanted to talk about the people who were hosting tables and the carers. 


There was 75 people who attended tonight which included carers and people hosting the table. I am in awe of what these people do, how much time, care and attention they have to pay to each person, even when serving them food. The disabled people themselves was a barrel of laughs. Everyone was so polite, and well the dancing? What can I say. 
I definitely LOVED this one couple . Colour coded, same food each, singing and dancing, it just shows that Love has no boundaries.  All in all it was a fantastic night and I love the fact Kerith put these events on for the disabled, it was clear as they all walked through the door that they were looking forward to their evening. I'll post pictures and a lovely cute video tomorrow once I have the photo's on my computer. 
Next Steps and Ten10 tomorrow, 


Sian xox
You are dancing Queen, young and sweet only 17

I Miss Blogger.

So I deleted my blogspot before purely because it was getting too much, but months later I've realised how much I miss being able to blog properly. 
I'm mainly going to be blogging about Church, and more than likely college.


So this weekend is pretty jam packed. Last night I was serving at LIFE helping out with the Project 125 stand which was a lot of fun. It was so great to see so many people getting involved with all the different ministries that are there to make LIFE happen. 


Today I'm serving at Hilltop, a ministry for the disabled who attend Church. It's my first time there and to be quite frank I'm incredibly nervous. I'll post tomorrow[If I get time] about how it goes, and more detail on what happens. 
Oh and if your reading this and would like to follow, please do, It's a new blog.


Sian xox
Raise your voice, your screams will be heard - White boys with soul, Streetfight Silence